Amanda Johnson Middleton

09-19-08

I just saw the first photo of a Brother FireFighter posted in your myspace photo album of whom recieved one of your kidneys. He is said to be doing well. You lived life and you

gave life. What a wonderful gift you were!

The last time we talked we were both talking about if we ever have another kid, we should do that together like we did our last two.  There's no one more special to share that with than your best friend.  I don't know where you were in life when God took you home, but he took you for a reason.  I hope that for whatever reason that was that you are happy, resting in peace, and not in any pain anymore.  I love you and wish that you would've have let me help you with whatever was troubling you so.  I would have done anything to help ease your troubles and to see that you'd still be here with us.  I love you and miss you, I was looking forward to us hanging out again, maybe more often that what we did.  You were by far the sister that God knew I needed in my life, and I thank him for that everyday.  I'm sorry I don't stop by here everyday, but stopping here only reminds me that this is real.  It just reminds me that no one is promised tomorrow and makes me worry about everyone else that I love dearly.  Losing you has been so hard for me emotionally and I honestly couldn't take it if someone else died.  I'd fall apart for sure.  God keeps taking people I'm really close to, and I have a hard time getting past this stuff.  I love you and I know that it's all ok cause I will see you again. 

Loving... Compassionate...

Beautiful... Loyal...

Loving Heart...
Wonderful Person...

The times we spent together

has been stored for my memories sake!

I was sitting here this morning at 7:30 am with thoughts of you on my mind. It suddenly hit me how I won't be getting anymore Happy Mothers Day calls nor Happy Birthday calls from you. My heart sunk and tons of grief is trying to settle in my heart. How are we suppose to move on? I felt you with me this morning as thoughts of you raced through my mind. I miss you so much, you know the amount of pain my heart feels.

 

Nothing, I mean nothing feels the same anymore. I still have the urge to ask Kim when she comes over to pick up the babies has she talked with you lately. I used to always ask her had she talked with you and what you were up to. Now I find myself asking her has she talked with Kent lately like that's going to make me feel better.

 

Always loving you, always missing you. Until we meet again someday.

 

 

 

 

 

I went to see Kent yesterday and he showed me your pictures.  One of the pictures were of you in the prom dress I loaned you when you went to your senior prom.  It was the same dress I wore to my senior prom.  I don't think I had ever seen that picture before, if I had, it must've been so long ago that I forgot.  You looked so beautiful!!!  I love you and miss you!!!  Hard without you here to keep in touch with.

Another memory of mine is...

 

You had a hard day at school trying to witness to people and set good examples. Some of the people in school were questioning you on a certain topic, You know what I'm talking about... You called me and asked me a question about forgiveness. I answered your question and you said, that was the right answer because your sunday school teacher had told you the same thing that I did. Life can be hard when trying to set good christain examples for the youth. I miss you Amanda so much! I especially miss our phone conversations...

This memory is for Hunter and Alyssa for they miss playing with your girls... 

The one memory that keeps coming to mind of you is...

 

Our bible study times after school.